Depression is not often believed to be a serious problem and people don’t take it seriously. Well, regardless of your belief nearly 4.4% of the world’s population is suffering from it which hints at a serious problem and I was one among them.
In other words, depression can be defined as a feeling of sadness, loneliness and a perennial plague of the human spirit. A person’s thought process manifests the depth of sadness. It begins with a mere thought which is a repercussion of an incident that took place somewhere, someday in our life. The reason be anything, some feel lonely after a heartbreak and some get depressed on facing failure while others get bullied in their early days. When the emotion persists with severe intensity for a longer period then it leads to major health problems. It affects the person’s personal and professional life be it at school, work or with family, it affects the mind and dismantles life.
I would like to share my story of depression and will tell how I managed to come over. It would be an immense pleasure if I am able to inspire any of you to avoid making the mistakes I made.
I was a big-time foodie and that was very much visible on my body. I weighed 40 kg when I was just 10 years. I was often bullied and criticized for being obese. Not only my classmates but my teachers too made fun of me for being overweight. It often left me in tears. My father is a Civil Servant and hence I had to change schools frequently with my family from one part of the country to the other.
Having not spent much time at one place, I barely made friends. I had no siblings which literally meant I was my own best friend. My social life sucked way more than you can imagine. With time, I lost interest in spending time with people and preferred to be alone, reading books. It’s truly said that solitude is dangerous, it’s addictive, once you see how peaceful it is you don’t want to deal with people anymore. I was decent in academics and some teachers appreciated my performance but this didn’t open any door for friendship.
Depression took control over my mind but it was not identified easily. I became a patient of insomnia, spent sleepless nights in bed staring at the ceiling while my days were spent dozing off in class. An academic performer was losing her grip, a neat freak was losing her obsession and a daddy’s girl was losing her smile. I had given up and was having thoughts to end my life. My mind became a battlefield and witnessed a war between sleep and studies, struggling to get up from the bed. I completed my higher secondary with a moderate percentile.
In between losing track of notes and being caught asleep during the lectures was how my initial days at college passed. With a habit of living in solitude, I had a tough time with my roommates as well. I got bored of my monotonous life in the college. I thought of meeting new people and say things to please them. Of course, I may not mean it but they didn’t have to know.I made a couple of friends and had late night parties but the feeling of despair never left.
I joined personality development class to enhance my confidence and that is where I met Rohit for the first time. Rohit was an eloquent speaker cum writer and to top it off he had an excellent personality. He was an expert in delivering an impromptu speech on any topic and never missed a chance to get on stage. On the other hand, I was a big-time introvert and barely participated in public speaking. As rightly said that opposites attract each other, similar was the case with me and Rohit.
Time seemed to pass faster than it should have. After completion of the first year, there was a two month vacation that kept us away but the evolution of technology had us connected. I used to have a hard time from parents for being engulfed in mobile mostly. I got obsessed with my phone so much that I used to jump from the dinner table on every single buzz of the phone. Our friendship took another leap when Rohit proposed. Now I had a friend who loved and cared for me. A teenage girl who usually believed that her life was distasteful and miserable had her thoughts changed.
Another year passed and my life was booming with success and happiness, but fate had different plans for us.
Stay tuned to know what fate had planned, Coming Soon !!